Sabbath Monday and glbts

Greetings Gentle Readers-
I just wanted to briefly check in. It's monday, the community day off, so I slept in until 9am, went to the Museum of Sciences, talked to the raccoon, and am off to hear Jim Wallace speak tonight on Evangelism in the Post Katrina world. I heard Jim Wallace once before in California and was very, very upset by the fact that he didnt seem to imagine a place for g/l/b/t people in this new evangelical movement that he is creating.

I remember leaving the place feeling disenchanted by what he said and also feeling left out. I remember thinking, what's a gay Christian to do? Somewhere along the way, someone decided that gay folks seem to need some help in their relationship to Christ and until they are helped or shepherded, then their relationship isnt authentic. That makes me so angry!!! My relationship with God is just fine thank you very much. Maybe this is another instance when being gay at good ol GAY USF with the Jesuits further sheltered me into thinking that everywhere g/l/b/ts were as accepted and loved as they are in SF and at the Univ of SF. And when I see that this isn't so then I am snapped rudely back into reality. This was the case with my first encounter with Jim Wallace. I had read his book--God's Politics and loved it. However, I didnt love it so much after I saw him. I remember picking up the raccoon and just about bursting into tears and saying, over and and over, what about me? Why does my sexuality have to infringe on my religion, at least according to other people. I am always so shocked to see so many heteros getting so concerned about gay/lesbian people. Frankly, I'm really not interested so much in what the heteros are doing so why are people worrying so much about me. One of my favorite posters in my college dorm room was of this 1950 pulp fiction lesbian couple and these giant words behind it that said something to the effect, "See the Lesbians as they wash the dishes, make the bed......and order Chinese food!!!!"

Well, I should do my laundry but I wont. I have enough to wear this week and I can always sneak a load in when I'm studying or reading.

The other postulant to be arrives tomorrow. All day long I have been wondering what she's been doing today. I find myself thinking back to my last day before flying out here. I had spent the week with my community and celebrating my relationships with people and eating more than I should have. However, I needed that as I have been drawing on the support and prayers of my community here and also back in CA. As my friend the Raccoon says, "You make friends everywhere you go since you are the charming monk." Sister X the superior said something similar when she said, you have a hugely welcoming spirit.

Otherwise, I am doing very well. I'm all moved into my room. I got some sticky stuff to put up my pictures and make the walls a little less bare and a little more alive. I've been listening to a lot of music. This blog and emails have really also helped. Thanks to everyone who has emailed or to my college/grad roomie who sent me the dunkin donut card!!!

Off to go get some dinner and then to the speaker tonight!

Love and Prayers,
Monk_1975